.love.

I know I’m not smooth with words,

so I’ll try and keep this short, both for my sake and yours..

I first began to realize it in 2010. Slowly but steady this recognition has grown, and it’s now in my face with a vengeance.

I’ve become overwhelmingly conscious of just how indecisive, unexpecting and unwillful I am. I’ve never been one to become angry, frustrated or irritated- but this lack of specificity along with the abounding amount of vagueness within myself is immensely aggravating…

At the point I am in my life right now, there are decisions that need to be made with the clock ticking fast, others feelings and emotions to consider, and my own desires to take into account. 

The only problem is, I can’t seem to figure out what I truly want to do. Everything is very blah (profound, I know) at the moment and I don’t know how to escape from the barriers I’ve seemingly created around myself.